Showing posts with label recovery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label recovery. Show all posts

Saturday, September 3, 2011

A New Life at Joy Junction


By Jeremy Reynalds
Senior Correspondent for ASSIST News Service




ALBUQUERQUE, N.M. (ANS) -- 
Luther was an alcoholic, but a functioning one.


He said he was living in a two- bedroom apartment with a significant other, her daughter and two granddaughters.  At that point in his life, he was doing mostly day labor.  It paid the bills, but it could still get rough, especially if he wasn't able to find work for that day.
Luther decided that he needed something a little more stable.  A friend of his knew there was a position open as a cook at a local restaurant.  Three weeks later, he was finally hired.
Luther

Luther worked there for three months, until the alcohol started to take an even more insidious hold on his life. 
He said, "Stress got me.  The nerves all combined together, and drinking helped me not care anymore."
Luther was eventually fired, with the drinking playing a major part in his termination. At that point, Luther said, he knew he had to get a job quickly so he could keep pace with the bills.
Luther said he landed a job at a local janitorial company, where, for about six months, he cleaned offices.  This time he quit the job, because it was getting too stressful.
He said, "It was all nitpicking and people saying I wasn't doing my job.  I said 'rather than argue about it, I'll just leave.'"
From there, Luther said, he increased his drinking.  
In late Oct. 2010, Luther had had it.    Step by step, he left everything behind; walked out of the apartment, walked out of his jobs, walked out of his kids lives.  He went to the streets.  His only stable companion during this time was beer.
Eventually, the beer failed to give Luther the comfort he needed, and he graduated to a more potent addiction: crack cocaine.
He said, "I was spending about 150.00 a day on crack."
Hitting up friends, panhandling and money obtained from selling cans helped fund Luther's addiction.
 Luther said, "I would go out 'canning' everyday, and that was just for one habit.
During this time, Luther was living wherever he could.  Sometimes he would stay at the Albuquerque Rescue Mission.  Other times he would just camp anywhere he could find. 
When winter came, Luther stayed at the Westside shelter, a winter shelter run by the Albuquerque Rescue Mission and funded by the City of Albuquerque from November to March.
He said, "Whenever I got enough money, I would stay in a hotel room for two or three days, but then, back to the streets."
Luther knew about Joy Junction from talking with Albuquerque's  homeless population, and had been to the facility over a decade prior.  However, he had no idea how large it was, nor the amount of services offered.
Luther said, "Everything out on the streets was changing.  People were 'defriending' each other.  People were no longer being nice to their fellow homeless friends.  It was becoming very dangerous to be out there."
He continued, "I was getting tired.  I was starting to slip into (more drugs).  I knew that I could get to the West Side, or I could call Joy Junction.  I told God that whichever bus came first is the one I would get on."
Joy Junction's van arrived first.
Luther said, "I was so drunk.  When I (arrived) ... I don't even remember who was there.  I was so drunk I don't remember what was going on.  All I do know is that I was SO scared of the heroin, that I knew I had to stay.  I had to get off the streets.  I didn't really feel anything when I first got to Joy Junction.  I was fading in and out."
Luther got signed in, and was shown to his spot where he would spend the night.
The first thing he did when he woke up the next morning was to ask if Joy Junction had a recovery program. After hearing a description of our program from a staff member, Luther was very interested.
He said,  I knew I needed it.  I was tired of the drinking and all that.  I was REALLY afraid of the heroin."
Currently in his fifth month of the program Luther is doing well. His program assignment is helping residents with their needs. Much like he was when he came through the door, Luther now helps those same scared people understand  they are safe.
Luther is thinking about life after Joy Junction.
He said, "I see a good future without drinking or anything.  I am ready to go out there, and work with people, and let them know what Jesus is all about."
Luther's caring attitude isn't reserved for his program assignment.  Through the day, when not on duty, he can often be seen helping those in need, whether it be residents, people in the program, staff, or even volunteers.   He is always there to offer a helping hand and a smile.
Luther said, "I would like to get back together with my family.  My drinking caused me to walk out.  I am now going to see them on the weekends.  I am trying to get myself situated, so that I can be there for them in the future."
Amen, Luther. We're glad that we can play a small part in your recovery.


Jeremy Reynalds is Senior Correspondent for the ASSIST News Service, a freelance writer and also the founder and CEO of Joy Junction, New Mexico's largest emergency homeless shelter,http://www.joyjunction.org He has a master's degree in communication from the University of New Mexico, and a Ph.D. in intercultural education from Biola University in Los Angeles. His newest book is "Homeless in the City."


Additional details on "Homeless in the City" are available at http://www.homelessinthecity.com. Reynalds lives in Albuquerque, New Mexico. For more information contact: Jeremy Reynalds atjeremyreynalds@comcast.net.

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Sunday, August 14, 2011

God Heals an Angry Heart

By Jeremy Reynalds
Senior Correspondent for ASSIST News Service



ALBUQUERQUE, N.M. (ANS) -- Kevin Turner's once stable and predictable life was about to change dramatically.

Kevin Turner
Turner had been living in Florida for 58 years. Married for 17 years to the same woman, they had been living in the Tampa area since 1993 in a doublewide trailer. He was a local trucker.Turner said, "I was a fuel hauler and made good money."

In 2005, Turner said, his wife had brain surgery for an aneurysm. It was a long surgery, seven hours, but she made a full recovery. She was in perfect health - apparently.

However, on June 21 2006, Turner said his wife passed away from an apparent heart attack.

Turner said, "I remember thinking, 'How can this happen? She was just at the doctor's office and she was fine."
That's when, Turner recalled, his world fell apart.

He became extremely depressed and angry and bitter towards God.

He recalled thinking, "To hell with it. I don't want to live. I even contemplated suicide. It was 17 years with her, and my life was jerked out from under me."

With the anger and depression eating at him, he left the home he had shared with his wife, and began living out of his Jeep.

Around his birthday, August 2008, Turner said he got tired of the way he was living, and decided he would take the first job offered to him, no matter where it was.

A position in Albuquerque New Mexico became available, driving locally.

Turner said, "I didn't have anything left for me in Florida, so I figured I'd venture out a bit. (After all), I was supposed to have a job waiting for me."

Turner sold his Jeep and everything else, and bought a plane ticket to Albuquerque. All he had with him was what he could carry on the plane. Kevin arrived in New Mexico and moved into a studio room in 2008 with the meager funds he'd been able to gather.

He said, "I had about $800.00 with me, which didn't last long."

Turner said when he arrived at the job site, he found the company had been seized by the Drug Enforcement Agency. Not really having anything to go back to in Florida, and not being exactly flush with cash, he decided to stay in Albuquerque.

He recalled, somewhat caustically, "My life felt like it had turned into a B-grade movie."

He worked out of a labor pool until he got a job with a local security company, which stationed him at a variety of locations around the city. He was able to save some money and move into a different apartment.

However, Turner said, the security company lost all its government contracts and he was laid off. It was time to look for work again. Jobs weren't forthcoming, and Turner's savings didn't last long.

Turner said he applied for unemployment, which took about ten weeks to reach him. Turner said the apartment manager had agreed to let him stay for a while, knowing that money was coming in. Unfortunately, after two months the manager decided that it was time for him to move.

Now homeless and unemployed, Turner said he stayed in a local park for a couple of weeks. It was winter, and cold.

During the day, he said, he would panhandle, pick up cans, wander around, and look for jobs. Picking up cans and panhandling was how he managed to eke out money for food.

During this time period, Turner said, his unemployment benefits kicked in, and he was able to move into a local motel served by Joy Junction's Lifeline of Hope outreach.

Turner said, "I saw the truck come in, and a whole bunch of people hanging around it. I was told they would feed me. So I went over there, and got a few bags of lunches and drinks. (The driver) talked to me about Joy Junction."
He added, "Of course, I was hard headed then, and I didn't want to come to Joy Junction."

Every time the Lifeline came by, Turner was there. He had received his unemployment, which was basically taking care of the room. He had not received his EBT card (food stamps), so he was relying on the Lifeline of Hope for all his food.

He was always looking for a job. He said, "I even offered to work for Joy Junction, if they were hiring. I was desperate."

After about two weeks of depending on the Lifeline of Hope for food, Turner said his unemployment benefits ran out.

He said, "That meant the room over my head was going to be gone. I talked to (the Lifeline driver), and she reminded me that Joy Junction is always able to help."

Turner said he called Joy Junction's main office and talked to a receptionist to get more information. From what he heard, though a bit apprehensive, he saw no other choice.

Turner said, "I actually borrowed a dollar from the hotel to catch a city bus to get to the Greyhound station, where Joy Junction picks up."

He said, When I got here, it looked like an institution ... I was scared and didn't know what I was getting into."
However, his fears diminished as he met Joy Junction staff. He was able to eat, had a tour of the campus, and signed in for the evening.

Shortly after arriving, due to an upper respiratory infection, Turner went to the University of New Mexico Hospital, where he was admitted for five days.

In the interim, Turner said, his on again off again unemployment restarted. He returned back to the motel where he had been staying, and was there for about 13 weeks.

The money ran out again. Turner returned to Joy Junction for the second time.

Three days after arriving, Turner joined Joy Junction's Christ in Power Program (CIPP). The nine month program, based on Tyndale House's Life Recovery Bible, is one of the many services Joy Junction offers.

He said, "On June 16 I came back to Joy Junction, with the sole purpose of using the program for what I believed it was designed to be for. To help me off the streets, help me get back on my feet, and provide a lifestyle without having to worry about the basics. I can focus on getting my license put in order. I could get what I needed to get a job. Joy Junction gives me the opportunity to save up money and get my documents in order. I couldn't do that while on the streets."

Turner is now in his second month of the life recovery program. He is doing well. His volunteer assignment is shelter security.

Always ready to assist anyone in need, residents and staff alike, he is helping to dispel some of the fear and apprehension he felt when first coming through the guard shack gate.

What does Turner hope to do after Joy Junction?

He said, "I hope I can get a good job. I hope to just restart my life. This is my rebirth here. I am using Joy Junction to be born again. I have God in my heart, the Bible in my reading, and a new outlook on life. I wouldn't be able to get that out there on the streets."

Turner added, "Joy Junction is helping me spiritually. They have helped me with my anger towards God. I am reading the Bible more than I have ever done, and I am learning from it."

My Take


Kevin, we are proud of you and believe that the Lord will help you accomplish the special plan He has for your life. Our prayers are with you.






Jeremy Reynalds is Senior Correspondent for the ASSIST News Service, a freelance writer and also the founder and CEO of Joy Junction, New Mexico's largest emergency homeless shelter,http://www.joyjunction.org He has a master's degree in communication from the University of New Mexico, and a Ph.D. in intercultural education from Biola University in Los Angeles. His newest book is "Homeless in the City."


Additional details on "Homeless in the City" are available at http://www.homelessinthecity.com. Reynalds lives in Albuquerque, New Mexico. For more information contact: Jeremy Reynalds atjeremyreynalds@comcast.net.



Saturday, July 30, 2011

The Way Back

By Jeremy Reynalds
Senior Correspondent for ASSIST News Service


ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO (ANS) -- Isabel paid a high price for her drug use: homelessness.
Isabel paid a high price for her drug use: homelessness.

She said, "I  was using marijuana and crack cocaine for about 20 years, and it took me down.  I had no control.  It took me to the streets where I kept losing jobs (and) apartments."

Isabel
Isabel said to " survive," she  turned to prostitution, not only to provide basic needs, but also to feed her addictions.

With no place to go and not knowing what to do,  Isabel kept putting herself in danger.

She said, "I felt like there was no way out.  I basically kept wandering the streets, not  eating for days and days at a time. "
That lifestyle of sadness and desperation continued until two years ago, when Isabel suffered a terrible attack.

 One day while returning from the store after buying something to eat, a  van pulled up beside her, with two young men who looked like they were about 19 or 20.  years old.  They asked Isabel if she knew where they could get some crack and she answered "Yes."

They opened the door and Isabel got in.  However, they never wanted any crack.  They trapped her in the back of their van, and one of the young men driving around while the other one kept raping her.  Then they would switch off. This unspeakable nightmare continued for 11 hours.

When her attackers finally released Isabel, it was a little after 5 am.  She was thrown out of the van, with no clothes, in the street.  However, she was able to get the van's license plate number. 
Isabel said she ran to a house where she saw some people outside, but had no idea where she was.
 
She said, "I started screaming and asked them for help, and told them I had been raped by two boys. "
The couple called 911,  and got a robe for Isabel. They stayed with her until the police and ambulance arrived.  Isabel said she doesn't remember what hospital they took her too, but she does recall they were nice and helped clean her up.

A hospital case manager  helped Isabel get in touch with her mother, with whom she stayed for about six months.
Isabel said she was clean during that time, but was still fighting her demons of addiction.  She left her mom's house after a conflict occurred between her and her mother's fiancĂ©. She was back on the streets.
Isabel later learned that the  license plate number of the van was stolen. It actually belonged to a Cadillac. Sadly, her attackers were never caught.

Isabel recalled putting herself in danger on numerous occasions-sometimes daily-just to feed her unquenchable and cruel addiction. 

The negative consequences  spanned multiple years, and  included jail time for prostitution and possession of crack cocaine; the latter netting her a nine- month stint.

Every time one of these situations occurred, Isabel said she would spend time thinking about how she could not continue to live like that.  However, the crack addiction would eventually take hold once again, and she would find herself bartering jewelry, possessions in general, and even selling her body just to get that next hit.
Isabel would often sleep in the parks.  She recalled sleeping at one in particular for over six months during an Albuquerque winter.  She remembered it being cold,  snowing and rainy, but not much else, as she was still in a drug induced haze.

In March 2011, Isabel had moved into an  apartment with a roommate.  Due to their mutual addictions, they were evicted. That roommate was also physically abusing her.  Unfprtunately she was also Isabel's payee, taking money from her to support the addictions.

After being evicted, Isabel decided she had enough. While downtown, she heard some people talking about Joy Junction.  Isabel was interested and ended up getting on one of our vans for a ride to the shelter.
She remembered feeling scared as the van pulled on to our property.

Isabel said, "I felt ashamed I lost my apartment; ashamed about my addictions, ashamed about being a prostitute- ashamed about many thing.  I hoped that it was a place where I could rest my head and get some good food to eat-maybe  keep myself clean.  I hoped it was a place I could get help.  I hoped I could talk to someone about the problems I had and my addictions.  I wanted to change my life because I couldn't live on the streets anymore.  I couldn't handle the crack and the marijuana. I was tired of it all."

Just a few minutes later, Isabel was directed to the office and signed in for a bed. 


Jeremy Reynalds is Senior Correspondent for the ASSIST News Service, a freelance writer and also the founder and CEO of Joy Junction, New Mexico's largest emergency homeless shelter,http://www.joyjunction.org He has a master's degree in communication from the University of New Mexico, and a Ph.D. in intercultural education from Biola University in Los Angeles. His newest book is "Homeless in the City."


Additional details on "Homeless in the City" are available at http://www.homelessinthecity.com. Reynalds lives in Albuquerque, New Mexico. For more information contact: Jeremy Reynalds atjeremyreynalds@comcast.net.